Glom

There aren't enough emotions or words to describe how I feel right now. I feel like crying mostly though I'm shamefully aware crying is the wussy and weak thing to do. I am trying really hard to see how this is going to help me going forward or what important lesson I'll be drawing out of this one but it's hard to see. I think maybe w/ some time the bitterness will dull out more, and a roundness of understanding and peace will replace what is currently sharp, and betrayed.

I should remember that no one is ever really stuck, but just unaware their legs were under them all along. I should acknowledge that what I have is far more compared to those who have not. I should see that this is only a very tiny and what will most likely become almost an invisible moment of my life which I will not remember years from now. I shall try to keep in mind that I am building towards a goal, big picture outcome, that when it comes right down to it, my motivation is love.

But for now, I shall curse those who crossed me under my breath and eat a slice of brownie.